Before & After I Learned About Human Design (As a 2/4 Splenic Projector)

I would’ve saved so much time, energy, and struggle if I learned about human design earlier! Better late than never. So when I learned about human design, there were a lot of things I was already actively working on, such as:

• Prioritizing more rest (guilt and shame-free) 😴

• Not comparing myself to others

• Not feel guilty about my energetic capacity compared to others

• Protecting my energy as an empath

• Having all these identities and interests and embracing my fluid-like nature

• Feeling unworthy

After I learned about human design, I gained breakthroughs, aha moments, and such intense clarity, and radical self-acceptance. Of course, the sabotage creeps in even after I have these breakthroughs, but I still return to human design whenever I need to remind myself of who I am and whenever I need a remembrance of self-acceptance.

Here are some specific examples from my chart and where I found radical self-acceptance after learning about it:

• Before HD: Feeling guilty for not having enough energy to do all the things I want to do.

  • After: Having complete acceptance of my energetic capacities as a projector and to embrace my own pace 🧘🏻‍♀️.

• Before: Comparing myself to those who seem to have all the energy in the world (Ex: my husband)

  • Accepting help without feeling guilty from my generator husband. Embracing that I offer value in different ways - encouraging him and guiding him, believing in his passions, and supporting him on his music production journey 👏🏼

• Before: Forcing myself to “do” even though my body and mind needed rest, leading me to burnout and worsening symptoms of lupus and thyroid issues

  • After: Prioritizing rest and not feeling guilty about it. Resting when I’m tired (this used to be such a struggle for me). I used to shame myself for the most ridiculous things now that I’m looking back at it!

• Before: Judging myself for being “too much”. Judging myself for being different, for not wanting the things that society has laid out for me.

  • After: With one of my defined channels, 43-23 (Genius to Freak Channel) - This is just who I am! I am meant to be like this and it’s okay.

• Before: Not trusting my intuition - rather using my mind to talk me out of my intuitive knowing, what I know is true with my body. With a splenic authority, there were times when I strongly felt my intuition and there didn’t seem to be any logic behind it, so I ignored my intuition and went with my mind.

  • After: I’ve learned to accept this part of myself and to listen to my inner knowing. I’ve gained wisdom through my body and I’m empowered to listen to that wisdom more and more.

• Before: Taking on other people’s energies, and feelings as if they’re my own (burning out this way)

  • After: With an open emotional center, I learned why I always felt like I was more angry, sad, etc. than my husband was when he felt those things FIRST. Whatever incident that happened to make him upset, why did I feel like I felt that feeling 10x harder and longer than he did? I realized it’s because I have this open center. Now, I work on protecting my energy and not carrying anyone else’s energy that isn’t mine.

• Before: Judging myself for not having a single “passion” and being interested in so many things. Judging myself for not fitting neatly into a box

  • After: With an open G-center, I learned that this is how I am. I am meant to be many things and like different things, and not all at the same time or maybe at the same time. I learned that me having to sit in a particular way at restaurants and feeling off if I don’t sit somewhere fitting or if there are no windows is related to my open G-center. The environment is more important to me than those with defined G-centers (such as my husband).

• Before: Feeling like I didn’t belong, feeling lonely

  • After: Learned that with my Gate 40 (Gate of Aloneness) activated, this feeling is “normal” and it’s also an illusion. For me, I have to actively seek out connections whenever I feel this part of my chart. 🫂

Now, if you’re interested in learning about human design, the first thing would be to download your free chart. It can be overwhelming and there are many rabbit holes you can go down on the internet.

If you’d like a personal 1:1 reading, I love to do mini-readings in the setting of a coaching partnership. I’ve found that doing it this way provides the time necessary to process and integrate your human design, so you can start living as your highest, most authentic self.

What it looks like is you have a goal in mind you’d like to work on through coaching and based on what you share, I offer guidance based on your chart. We then go into coaching mode to see how to integrate your soul blueprint into your life now. For more information and rates, please schedule your first free coaching session with me.

I hope this blog post was helpful.

What aspects of yourself do you wish to have radical self-acceptance for? What’s getting in the way of it?